Early release! And other news!!!!

We were released from the RE on the 31st!! We had our ultrasound and Biscuit was looking good, all nestled in the corner with a really strong heartbeat. The nurse tried to get the baby to turn but was not successful; Biscuit was comfy and not turning!

Biscuit looks more like a baby now than before. It's amazing the difference a couple of weeks makes. They grow so fast!! And without further ado, here's Biscuit!
I go to the OB on February 14. I'm excited...but nervous at the same time. I know what to expect at the RE... :)

I've been feeling great the last couple of weeks. I haven't had any sickness at all. I'm so glad that week was a fluke and I haven't been sick since. I was not looking forward to weeks of being that sick.

Onto other news, we had snowmaggedon this week. We ended up with 20" of snow in about 24 hours. Shane has been snowed in at work (who knew a bank was "essential"!?!?!) and we're hopeful he'll get home today. If not, so be it. I tried shoveling yesterday but it was an epic fail. I was successful in the morning but waited to long to do the second round. The snow was deeper than my shovel blade and I couldn't move it. So, the dogs and I are snowed in. Shane is snowed out. It's an interesting predicament! I hope that school is closed again tomorrow; as it is, I won't be getting out tomorrow unless Shane gets home. They plowed the cross street at our house, completely blocking our road. I'd guess the drifts are waist high at the end of our road. I can't get a car out in that!! Betty is completely buried and couldn't clear the drifts even if she wanted to.

Ready to feel better!

I know I am so luck to be where I am...after this long of a wait we are so thankful to be able to say we're pregnant! That being said, I'd like to be able to enjoy eating again!

Tuesday of this week I had the flu. It was BAD...I will spare you the details but I thought if that was morning sickness (that lasted all day!) I was ready to quit. Thankfully I felt better on Wednesday but I've been squeamish since. And stupid things make me gag. I can't discuss them (I'd like to keep my breakfast down!) but just know it doesn't make any sense.

I'm exhausted. Like more exhausted that I've ever been in my life. I go to sleep at 8:30 or 9 and sleep until the next morning. And still feel tired. I sometimes wonder if my evening sickness is from being so tired and my body just giving in?

I am excited for my next u/s on the 31st. I just hope everything is growing like it should!!!

Saw the heartbeat!

What a beautiful sight!!! We saw that prized heartbeat at the RE's office.

The appointment went well. Dr. Gil says baby is measuring a couple of days ahead but he'll take it. It's so early that it's really hard to tell anything. That being said, it's pretty darn amazing that we can even see anything this early!

Here's the pics from the u/s. The bottom left is probably the best.


We go back in two weeks for one last u/s with Dr. Gil and then we're released to our OB. It will be really strange to go t0 someone other than Dr. Gil. We've been with him the last three years or so. So, for now, looks like everything is moving in the right direction!

SUCCESS!

It worked! It worked! Look at our beautiful bean!!! Now, to throw some caution in, there is not a heartbeat yet. We go back on the 18th to see that beautiful heartbeat.

Everything today looked perfect. The nurse cried right along with Shane and I when we saw the beginnings of baby Biscuit :) Yes, the baby will be Biscuit until otherwise named; this child wants nothing but biscuits and gravy to eat!!

More later...

Wondering what Tuesday will bring

It's still a little unreal to me that I saw that BFP on Monday. I'm trying really hard not to worry; it's hard to not to, given everything Dh and I have been through to get here. I keep trying to tell myself that it's important to enjoy each moment we're given and if things change, I can't do anything about it.

So, here's how I'm feeling right now:

• Trouble sleeping at night - my extremities go to sleep
• Some cramping off and on
• My pants don't fit like they used to
• Already up a size in my brassieres

I can't wait to see what Tuesday brings. It's so nervewracking to wait!!

The post I've been wanting to make!

Isn't that the most beautiful sight you've ever seen? I think so!

DH and I finally got our elusive BFP this week. I took the test so I could quit taking the progesterone supplements (those things are GROSS if you've ever had to take them) and get my AF to start. I had it all planned out - I'd take the test, then call the doctor's office and see if they'd get pre-authorization on the lap for January.

So I took the test, set it aside and checked in about a minute. Totally expected to see one line. And what did I see? THAT beautiful second line. :) In less than the 2 minute window.

So Monday was my first beta - it measures the HCG in my blood. The nurse said she wanted to see a number higher than 50. She called a little later in the day with my result: 353!!!

Today was my second beta. Betas should double every 48-72 hours. The nurse said she was hoping to see a 60% increase in my number - so something in the 600s. My number? 747!!! It doubled in less than 48 hours :)

I think these numbers are high so we may have more than one in there. We find out on Tuesday - our first ultrasound! I'll be a little over 4 and a half weeks. Too soon for a heartbeat but we can count babies. Then we'll have another ultrasound in about 3 weeks to find the heartbeat(s).

I can hardly believe it's finally happened. DH and I are just hopeful that my pregnancy continues without many hiccups or problems.

It is what it is

I've decided that it is what it is. I can't change the hand that IF has dealt DH and I. I can't change the fact that my heart has hardened just a little after 4 years of trying. What can I do? Accept it and move on.

I don't know that this cycle didn't work. I won't know either way until Monday. It seems like our odds are low...but it is what it is. This time of year is hard - how fun would it be to see Christmas through the eyes of my own child? But, if this doesn't work, I just know that there are bigger plans for DH and I. It seems like in my family, we can beat our heads against a brick wall for YEARS and then when the time is right, everything falls into place. We can't change the plans that have been made for us.

DH and I are blessed with the life we have. Looking around, there are people who would give ANYTHING to be where we are - a safe home, new cars, each other, food on the table and in our pantry, and being completely surrounded by the love of our families. This time of year, it is easy to get overwhelmed with everything going on - parties, gifts, functions - but it most important to be thankful for everything we have.

I've come to the realization that everyone always wants something they don't have. In our case, we want a baby. Others may want a shiny new car, that brand new house or the perfect mate. It is what it is.