New cycle!

Today was our CD3 u/s to make sure we were back to baseline. Nurse Kim (my fav!) said everything looked fantastic! Dr. Wilshire said that he was excited about how great things had gone for us last cycle and felt like we should try IUIs 4-5 times before moving on. I started my Clomid again today...through CD8. We got for another u/s a week from Saturday (April 3) to make sure I'm responding as I should. We are so hopeful that this is it!

Looks like costs for meds are about $120 per shot; this includes the Clomid ($9...thanks WalMart!), $50 for the trigger shot and about $60 for the progesterone. I sure do wish that insurance would cover it...but, alas, it's worth it in the end if we get the elusive BFP and ultimate baby. We haven't seen any bills rolling in from Dr. Wilshire's office; we know the insurance more than likely won't cover them but it's worth a shot. Maybe, if the u/s are coded in a certain way, they will.

I'm starting to freak a little about $$. I do this. It's just part of who I am. I like to have a nest egg and it seems like we can't get that far ahead. This house has drained us; we were doing great and then started doing some decorating and it's killing us again. We'll have a loan paid off this summer which will free up quite a bit of money...then we can get the rest paid off (hopefully) and move on. I would LOVE to get to the point we have no debt outside of house and maybe cars.

Here's to hoping that #2 is our lucky number!

Just as I suspected

The test was a blaringly white bfn :( So, now I'm waiting to call the dr on Monday. Shane and I are prepared to do another round of medicated IUI...but we'll see if he's game for that. I know Dr. Wilshire thinks that IVF is a better fit for us, but we aren't there yet. Mentally NOR financially.

So, we are taking it easy today. Shane's still recovering from his cold and I am enjoying a day off. School starts again tomorrow (boo) so we'll be back in the swing of it all.

Naptime!

WONDERFUL DAY TODAY! Dreading tomorrow.

Today was exactly what I needed. My best friend in the whole wide world came up with her hubby and son and we spent the day together. We all hung out for a while and then we ditched the boys :) We went and got our hair cut and went to WalMart (gag) for a few things. It was exactly what I needed today. I don't see her nearly enough. We've been friends for so long (12 years!) and she's been down this IF road so she gets it. Others try but can't understand the feelings. She does. And she's great. :)

Tomorrow answers the questions. I'm not ready. At all. I'm still living in this world of 'maybes' and I like it. A lot. I'm terrified of seeing another bfn tomorrow and having spent ALL this money (granted it's not like we did an IVF cycle or anything...but still. It's money!) for nothing. I know, it's been a great learning cycle, we know I respond well to the meds, etc. That's great. Still not going to help the pain of the stark white pregnancy test I'm preparing myself to see. I have a feeling that tomorrow is going to be a rough day. Real rough. At least I have the happiness of today to help. And my wonderful husband.

Sorry to be such a downer. It's just hard to know what's coming...and not like it.

10DPO Test

And it was a bfn (big fat negative) :( I'm feeling more like AF is on her way, too. I'm so bummed right now.

I know it was early but still...the sore boobs are not as apparent, I'm still bloated and tonight have a KILLER headache. Still fighting waves of nausea, too...these could all be good signs or not. It's a waiting game until Sunday/Monday. I would LOVE to prove everyone that I'm right and we're gonna make this work, but I'm losing some hope.

On a bright note, I should get to see my BFF tomorrow. I can't wait!!

10 dpo tomorrow - TESTING!

As most of you know, I don't test. EVER. I did for a couple of cycles way back in the day, but now I know that good ol' AF (period) is the best, cheapest test available. So I just don't do it.

BUT, now that we've spent the money to do this IUI and such, I am dying to test. Absolutely. I have 4 tests. Dr. Wilshire said not to test until Sunday but I'm going to start tomorrow.

I've been feeling HORRIBLE this week. I had one good day (Tuesday?) that I didn't but ever since, it's not been pleasant. I hope it's a good sign.

So, I'm preparing myself to see a negative tomorrow but won't give up until I see a negative on Sunday. Sunday is the "actual" day.

Here's to waiting...

Paint! Dishwasher! Knobs!

My parents came up this weekend and helped us with the house. Dad and Shane finished the dishwasher installation and put the knobs up in the kitchen. Mom and I worked on priming, then the boys helped. We ended up working much more quickly than expected and got a coat of paint up! We chose the color "Dolphin Fin" from Behr...it's beautiful! Very subtle and light but so nice. I love it!!! Depending on how everything goes, I think Mom and Dad may come back up in a couple of weeks to help us paint our room - going to gold instead of purple. It's not a large space but our furniture is really heavy and has to be dismantled to move it. (I guess it best to way and see if this treatment turns us into expecting or not...)

On another bright note, I'm going to see Alice in Wonderland this afternoon with my oldest nephew, Jason. I'm pumped!

Off now to take a nap. Naps are good!!

Last ultrasound!

I had my last u/s today! This one was to see if my follies had released as they should have...and BOTH did. The nurse was hoping for one so was pleasantly surprised when she discovered that both had ruptured. She also said that I had fluids in every place I should and started me on progesterone supplements. I'll be on these supplements for the next two weeks. I can test on Sunday the 19th and go from there.

The other good part is that everything has gone as planned...and even better than hoped. It's hard not to have too much hope but to have enough that it will work.

I hope the next two weeks fly by.