YAY! Twinges!!

I am feeling the effects of Clomid. I can say that I'm lucky in that I've not had the hot flashes, crabbiness or otherwise crankiness that many ladies get. **knocks wood** BUT last night and tonight I've been feeling LOTS of twinges on both sides. I have all of my fingers and toes crossed that this is a good sign and I'll have beautiful follies on Saturday!

And on Saturday I'm going to see my BFF Lani and we're going to have a GREAT day! Getting our hairs did and having some good, quality time together. Life will be great! I can't wait to get this mop of hair cut off my head...I'm going super short and spiky which will be fun. I "cleared" it with my boss today and we're good to go. There's a fine line, at least in my opinion, between punky and appropriate for an office setting.

I really hope this cycle works. I am ready for it to be "my turn" and be able to join the leagues of preggos in the world. That being said, if it doesn't, we are taking the summer off. We'll start back up in the fall.

<3 to all!

Day full of doubt!

I have these every once in a while. I've been so busy I haven't had time for doubts but I've been taking it easy today.

I don't know that these IUIs will work. I know I have to have faith or they won't. There's three of us girls from high school that are all trying to get pg again...two of us with IF issues, one without. I'm so afraid that they will get pg before me. I would be ecstatic for them to get their wish...but I want mine. I really want this more than anything. In fact, DH just turned down a job in order to stay closer to our families. I hope it was the right thing to do.

I just don't want this money to be without a positive outcome. IF is so hard...most times I'm okay but there are days, like today, that it hits me.

New protocol!

Well, we had another CD3 u/s today. I have a small cyst on my left side (nothing major). I'm up to 100mg of Clomid, CD3-7 and then I go back next Saturday for my next u/s. I'm HOPEFUL that #3 is our lucky number. We're going to erase all the bad news from last cycle and start fresh this time. We'll have high counts - both in follies and in spermies. I just know it!!!!!

I'll take any extra thoughts and prayers anyone has floating around. Can't have too many!! <3

Another bfn :(

Just as I suspected...another BFN. Nothing new.

We'll see what next cycle brings!

Drat! IUI#2

Well, we did IUI#2 yesterday. I'm holding out very little hope for this cycle. I think my body disregarded the clomid and trigger so I believe I O'd early (I have ZERO proof of that except that I've been doing this since 10/06 so I know my body's signs!); I had TONS of pain on Monday afternoon and evening and the old ovaries have been quiet since.

Shane's count was LOW (2million) with LOW motility (21%). Dr. Wilshire came in and said it wasn't impossible to work this time...but I know that this cycle is a bust. Part of me wants to skip the progesterone supplements this time but I won't. I hate those things!!

We'll see what happens on the 19th of April but don't be surprised to see a bfn. That's what I'm waiting for!!

Tuesday!

Well, we had our u/s this morning. We have one good looking follie (drat...I was hoping for 3!!). We trigger tonight and have our IUI on Tuesday morning at 10 a.m. Crossing my fingers this works!!!!

Next appointment is Saturday!

Well, I'm anxiously awaiting 9 a.m. on Saturday. We have an u/s scheduled to see if/how well I've responded to the meds and get the protocol. I would assume I'll trigger Monday or Tuesday which would put the IUI on Wednesday or Thursday. I just want this one to work.

I haven't discussed it with Shane but I feel like we shouldn't do more than 3 IUIs. From what research I've done it appears that most people don't get PG from #4 or 5...so I'm not sure it's worth the $$ to do more. I am fearful that it won't work and we'll be stuck. Well, not "stuck" but not where we want to be...which is knocked up. I'm going to try to NOT worry about it and see where this path leads us.