It is what it is

I've decided that it is what it is. I can't change the hand that IF has dealt DH and I. I can't change the fact that my heart has hardened just a little after 4 years of trying. What can I do? Accept it and move on.

I don't know that this cycle didn't work. I won't know either way until Monday. It seems like our odds are low...but it is what it is. This time of year is hard - how fun would it be to see Christmas through the eyes of my own child? But, if this doesn't work, I just know that there are bigger plans for DH and I. It seems like in my family, we can beat our heads against a brick wall for YEARS and then when the time is right, everything falls into place. We can't change the plans that have been made for us.

DH and I are blessed with the life we have. Looking around, there are people who would give ANYTHING to be where we are - a safe home, new cars, each other, food on the table and in our pantry, and being completely surrounded by the love of our families. This time of year, it is easy to get overwhelmed with everything going on - parties, gifts, functions - but it most important to be thankful for everything we have.

I've come to the realization that everyone always wants something they don't have. In our case, we want a baby. Others may want a shiny new car, that brand new house or the perfect mate. It is what it is.